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I haven’t left my bed. I constantly feel like crap. I’m lonely, I’m sad, and I don’t have any motivation. Fuck this feeling.
I don’t feel the same. For a long time I’ve been struggle to find who I am, and now I’m just lost. For a while, for the best while, I had someone who taught me who I was. Then they left, and I was stuck not even sure of anything. For months I thought about it. Nothing ever came out of my thinking. Then someone else came around. As happy as that person makes me, something is still missing. A part of me that wants to break down at every minute. Because I know I screwed up bad. I don’t know what I did, but karma kicked my ass. I miss her a lot. I lie awake and wonder if she feels the same, but then I think not. Why would she? All she ever did was make me feel okay, but the thing is, okay is wonderful. Or I should say was.